No matter how much my parents are strict and sometimes insane, I love them. They have their flaws, they have their bad days, bad weeks, but I love them. I am grateful for them, I’m grateful to be their daughter. They want nothing but happiness for me, even though our definition of happiness might differ. They mean well 100% of the time. Even though my dad is a worry wort and my mom is a controlling little monster, I love them!

Relationships are hard to decode. No matter how many I have with friendships, boyfriends, family, I don’t think I’ll ever be able to understand it fully. Of course experiencing it will help my understanding of it and damn, it never seems to amaze me.

I’m a pretty complicated person, if I do say myself. And I have to say I’m quite selfish at times as well, but who isn’t? Watching a tv show and talking to my sisser last night, something made me think, why do things go a certain way; why do we lose friends? I’m not being biased or anything, but I believe, I honestly believe that I’m a good friend, a good person and I also know that my sisser is as well. But we continue to meet the wrong people, or you can say, people just seem to meet us.

I feel like we treat our friends equally. We treat one another with deep respect..until questioned that is. Call me full of myself, but I wonder why my relationships with friends don’t work. I treat them well, well enough. I’m protective of my friends and I really do call my good friends my family. They’re my chosen family. I would do almost anything for them. Do I ask for too much? Do they ask for too much? When does it do wrong? And how can I stop the relationship from deteriorating?

I hope as my life goes on, I will be able to become the perfect friend. But what the hell, I don’t I can ever be, but I can always try.

On side note, if you piss me off, if you give me a reason that you can’t be trusted, that I chose the wrong friend, I’ll be sure to make you know. I don’t like when I choose the wrong friends; but it happens. It’s such a waste when you’ve spent a few years with someone you thought you knew and in the end, they turn out to be the person you wish you never met Attitudes change, brains expand, and people change I guess.

Life happens. Deal with it.

This past weekend was quite eventful. My friends were throwing an October birthday party and it was a really good turnout. I had a lot of fun and I still remember everything that occurred, which is an amazing feeling. My cousin came up for this birthday; he turned a whoppin’ 17 years old. He makes me feel so darn old! We took him to the party, and then out to eat the following day. We then took him to the fair, which we all enjoyed except for the intensely cold weather. I won a big.. wait..a HUGE stuffed blue dog and got to eat my favorite chocolate syrup funnel cake. I could have died happy that night! Before the fair, my friend and I went to check out some shoes that he wanted to get. It was a skateboarding little store that sold some nice but pricey shoes. I saw a hat that I really wanted to rock out, but that darn thing was about 30 bucks. I don’t think I’m willing to pay that much for it. And I’m pretty sure, I’ll be able to make one in the future. But after the fair, we went kareoking because he really wanted to. We all had a blast and finally at about 3am, we all called it a night.

It was an eventful Saturday!

I’ve been taking a PE class called Fitness and Wellness. It’s an interesting class fyi, for a person who doesn’t really spend their time at the gym much. We meet up two days a week for about 50 minutes a day. On one day, we work our cardio and run for about 30 minutes and for the other day, we weight lift. Running didn’t really seem diffcult when I signed up for the class with my friend but it is. Running for 5 minutes straight is hard enough for me. I’m so out of shape, it’s pretty funny. Weight lifting is always a fun time. My friend and I have finally gotten used to the different machines to work out with. We have a test on these soon, to see if we’re lifting correctly and I think we’ve got to get crackin’ on practicing. We have a gym at our apartment complex but I wonder if they have machines like the ellipticals for us to practice our strength abilities. I guess we’ll see, won’t we!?

I’ve been watching TV this weekend, more than before and I’ve realized all of the commercials that the media puts upon us. From BC to diet pills, they’ve got it all; call the number the provided. I’ve always wondered who much these commercials would cost. I’ve heard numerous estimations about which commercials cost most, which are the Super Bowl ones but I’m curious to know how much the “regular” ones cost. What if a small business wanted to advertise their business via TV commercials? Hm, this is something I should look up rather than to write about, huh?

I love traveling into unknown cities. I went to a city that was about 30 minutes away from school and I loved it. I mean, I’ve been to it before but only for special occasions. I haven’t been able to visit just for fun but this Saturday was an exception. There was this little shopping center that consists of such random and cute stores. When I was visiting my sister in WA/Canada, we went to the bead store quite a few times. I love them. I haven’t been able to locate one until this weekend. Unfortunately, we came at an inconvenient time and missed the store being opened. But nonetheless, it looked really beautiful from the outside. There were other random stores that sold such things as cattle supplies to foreign fabrics. Sometimes I wonder how these businesses stay alive with their randomness. I guess it makes the city quite unique!

Living with people is a tough thing to accomplish if you have no idea how to communicate with people. During the summer, I remember living with people who didn’t wash their own dishes. Surprisingly, it caused a lot of tension; which obviously didn’t evolve from the dishes. I don’t understand how hard it is to wash your own dish right after you use it? Sigh.. I don’t think I’ll ever understand. I mean if you wait until the sink gets full, you’ll save a bit a water? perhaps and you’ll take more time washing time. Also, if you wait to wash time at a later time, you can possibly leave residue on the dishes or stains.

I washed quite a few dishes this weekend, and it hasn’t really pissed me off just yet. But when it does, I know how to open my mouth this time.

Also another random thought, but you’d think after using a lot of soap for the dishes, the kitchen faucets would be nice and clean, but ours is kind of dirty. :X

Fall Break has ended and I’m pretty sad about it. I loved the fact that I was still 5 minutes from school and didn’t even have to step foot onto campus. I enjoyed the freedom for a few days. Even though everyone else went home, there were a few people still in town, which made it really enjoyable. Meeting new people is always a plus and I thought I was done with it this year. Being a part of an organization literally requires me meeting new people and then this semester started and we had our first big meeting, I didn’t really feel like being social. But this weekend, I enjoyed the thrill that potential of being good friends of ‘meeting new people’ this weekend.

But class is starting right aruond the corner.. and I should go to sleep.
PS. Does anyone know of a good acne cure?

For the past two weeks, or should I say month, I’ve been celebrating birthdays. It’s been a good time, really. Back in the day, we would all get together, I’d say about 30 asians come all at once to a restaurant and give presents and whatnot. Nowadays, we throw parties for the old one to try to get them drunk as crap. Last time, my best friend and I threw one for a friend; it was amazing, the turnout was great and there were enough drinks for everyone. Even though it cost literally 200 bucks for the drinks, it was worth it at the end. I’m not sure we’re willing to do it again though. We tried so many different drinks; we could literally sign up for a wine of the month club and enjoy it now!