I”ve updated..well made an About page there on the right, so go check it out when you have a chance. I”m not done with it yet so bear with me.

It’’s not that I haven”t realized that life is solely based on decisions but I just realized how critical and life-changing they are and how they can be. It’’s important to know that you can”t base your opinions and judgments based on how you, yourself, perceives issues and whatnot. Onto more personal issues and decisions, my plane trip to Canada made me realize a lot of things. The decisions I make not only effects me but others around me. I met a guy on the plane. He joined the military a few years back and it changed his life. He just came back from Iraq in September his wife called it off because he changed. He gave up a lot of things like marijuana and hobbies for the army. When I met him on the plane, he was coming back from his friend’’s funeral, who died serving the war in Iraq. He told me stories of the happenings in Iraq on how intense and life-changing it is. I can”t imagine having to aim and shoot someone in the face multiple times because “it’’s my job to do so”. I can”t imagine the emotions he must have felt when he was obligated to do such things.

There are things in life, I would tell myself that I would never do. I try to be as open-minded as possible but I realized, on the plane, that I wasn”t as open-minded as I thought I was. There are explanations to everything everyone does and there’’s bad to every good and good to every bad. No matter how many lives the war was taken from him and no wonder how many obstacles he had to deal with, at the end of the plane ride, I asked him if he would want to go back to Iraq, he simply said “yes”.

While witnessing all of their drunkenness on the plane, I realized that I could have been one of them. If I had decided to go to the bar with them when we got off the plane, if I had decided to keep his phone number, I would have made a decision that would effect everyone I know. What if I were to accept his alcoholic drinks and smell like shit when I met up with my sister and her mother-in-law? Decisions effect everyone. I now often wonder what kind of life I would lead if I chose another direction. It’’s not like I don”t appreciate and love the decisions I made, but what if I chose the other path, would I be hating my life, or would I just be saying how much I”ve accustomed to it and be content?

I was thinking how many roller coasters one has to deal with in life and I was wondering for half a second, would it be better if I didn”t exist, so I wouldn”t have to deal with all of these decisions. But then I (again) realized that no matter how many roller coasters I”m going to have to deal with, the more plane rides I”ll be able to enjoy, the more happiness will come out of it; the more I”ll realize how amazing it is to have a chance to live life and to experience obstacles and its adventures.