The busiest weekend thus far this year is finally over. With months and months of planning for the big show, it was a success. The show was on Saturday night lo and behold, it was the first time it showed for the year. Call it bad luck but it was a great turnout nonetheless. The night before, I spent the whole day doing errands for the show and I should have realized it was going to the the beginning of the hectic-ness. I was on my feet for practically the entire day, not to mention having to deal with people who didn”t want to cooperate. I don”t like dealing with immaturity especially on a day like that. Growing up, day by day, I”ve become more professional as you can say. I try to be anyways. Being a part of something really big allows you to appreciate things like this. People canceling on you the last minute, people being stingy and selfish, people not keeping their word. The show is over and everything but I don”t expect those kind of people would go away. Those kind of people will always be with you wherever you go. You just have to learn how to deal with it. Even your close friends will disappoint you. I”ve had a lot of disappointments this past weekend. But friends come and go, only the good ones stay.

After the show was the afterparty at the club. Our night did not end until 3am. When it was finally over, none of us could believe it. We spent months and month putting it together and wow, it’’s finally over. Thank god.

It was a great experience that I don”t regret doing even though there would be countless times where I”d want to just get up and quit. There are times when I”d just want to say how I feel to our president, and that I did do. I”m proud of who I become, I hate taking shit from assholes and I hate dealing with them. But I”m used to it by now. I”m still contemplating whether or not I”d like to take the same position again. It was a fun ride, but I”m I willing to deal with everything again?

This past weekend, I met a ”famous celebrity”. While we were waiting to pick him up at the airport, we all started getting kind of nervous. I mean..why would we get all nervous, he’’s just another regular human being right? He just happen to be talented and lucky enough to be on TV and to have millions upon millions of people know who he is.

With Fame, what do you get other than money and recognition? As we spent time with him over the weekend, we realized how lonely he was. I felt bad for him. The little things he does made us realize that fame doesn”t get you far; it doesn”t make you happy. It could make you happy in a way that you”re doing what you love but to be traveling everywhere within a month or so doesn”t give you enough time for any of your friends, let alone to make new ones.

I don”t want to be famous. I don”t really want to travel around the world anymore. I used to want so badly to travel the world, to even make it as my career somehow, but how can one get settled that way? I mean, I eventually want to start a family but what kind of person would I be if I were to be across the world every other week? I don”t know how some people do it anymore. Sigh.

January 9 was our one year anniversary and it was a good day indeed, except for the part where he forgot. But other than that, it was a good day. We went out to dinner at Ruby Tuesday’s and it was delicious. He’s not really into any sort of holidays just like my parents so I’m used to it..sort of. I got him a frame with three black and white pictures that I took.

Valentine’s Day is coming up and he hates that holiday. I don’t really care..I guess but even if he did like the holiday, I’d probably get him one of those cheesy and cute gifts. Until then though, I’ll be fine just hanging out with him for the day.

When do you know you should prepare for the worst? The worst always comes at you when you”re not looking, when you”re not prepared. But what do you do when you can sense that the worst is going to happen? Do you ignore it or do you mope and fear? Or do you dive into it with your head first to get it over with? I kind of wish I had a warning so that I could kick it in the ass.

You can”t avoid it; it’’s bound to happen.

Our big annual show is coming up, Asia Nite 2008. I’m so excited for it. We’ve (well the most of us) have been working hard to try to put the whole show together. It’s this Saturday and I’d have to say that I think we’re prepared for it. The hour before the show is going to be so hectic and frustrating, I can tell you that right now because people have yet to reserve tickets. Most of everyone that I know of are waiting on the day off to buy tickets. Good luck to them for waiting in line. We have
a special guest performance by Dat Phan, a stand-up comedian.

I haven’t talked to my parents in a while. I’d say it was about 5 days. Do you want to know the reason? Well my friend told my uncle that I had a boyfriend. Yes, the more than a year kept secret is out simply because he told him straight out. I always thought they’d surprise me by coming to school to see me then see Michael in my room or something. I would have never thought what happened just happened. I found out on our One Year Anniversary. What a pleasant surprise yeah?

Yeah, I thought so too.

# What is your favourite fruit?
Green mangos with chili salt ! Mmmmmm..

# What is the last book you read?
I can honestly and embarrassingly say that I don”t remember the last book I read. I used to read all of the time before college, -__-

# Do you like any of your school photos?
I I think I liked about..half of them. Or maybe 1/3 of them. Luckily we don”t take anymore ‘’school photos”.

# Do you ever blowdry your armpits to get the deodorant to dry quicker?
Lol ew. No, but I do pluck my pits!

# What was the last film you watched?
Most of Juno. We were more than halfway through until the movie got cutoff. We got a refund and two free movie tickets though. :)’

..is starting soon and I”m really not ready for it. I think this is the most I”ve ever dreaded for a semester to begin. I don”t know what I”m taking. I do in a way that I signed up for them but why did I sign up for them? I made an appointment with the adviser of my desired major last month and I ever met up with him. Something about committing to a major scares the living shit out of me.

Omg boy I need help.

I can”t get over the past and it’’s haunting me. I don”t have the courage and strength to forget and try to move on. I want to be able to live day by day at ease. I turn up the music on the headphones as I”m listening to my music so I don”t hear anything I don”t want to hear like the receiving messages sound on AIM that is coming from the computer near me. What’’s with me with needing so much reassurance? -___-

Trust.

Trust. Trust. Trust.

I”m finally back home in Raleigh after a long yet fun break with the rents and family. It was an eventful break, I”m glad they all came to visit. One thing that I didn”t do was hang out with friends. I didn”t see anyone out of my family. But it’’s okay. I”m glad to be back. It’’s time to me to continue this section of my life.

So this post has been written a couple of days ago. And I”m just now finishing it up. I have to admit. I just came back from a party and I was the first one to get drunk and the first to leave. Wow, it’’s been awhile since I”ve gotten drunk. I used to take a lot of drinks, but nooot anymoreeee.

Wow, it’’s good to be back.