I can”t stay home for too long. My mom is the main reason why all of her children want to move out. It’’s been a while since I”ve really stayed at home and omfg, I understand completely. I can”t do it. She yells all of the time like its her pasttime. She loves to yell. She loves to scream. She made me who I am right now because of the yelling and screaming. I don”t respond well to it and I never will because of her. I don”t understand how her mind works. The more she yells, the more dysfunctional I and everyone else becomes. And the more it doesn”t help. Can”t she see that after 25 years, her tactics don”t do a thing? Shouldn”t she resort to something else?

And she wonders why I never come home.
But yeah, I love her. Deep down inside.

I”m going to have around 20 of my relatives starting to come in tomorrow and I guess I gotta say that I”m excited. Nothings wrong with having people you haven”t seen for awhile or people you don”t see daily around. Sure our house will be the loudest in the block, or probably even the loudest in the city, but it”ll be fun I guess. Sure my vietnamese family is going to take pictures everywhere and anywhere but I guess that would be fun for time being too.

There’’s NOTHING like having a little kid living in the house. Boy, he IS a pain but he is adorable. I love being him here. I”m trying to imagine the house without him and its hard to, even though we”ve haven”t had a kid (like him) around the house in a long while. Ehhe I love him. My sister is going to enjoy him. ;p It”ll be a test run. lol, a hard one might I add.

Okay Linda is being slow as hell with the hair dryer, I”m going to go yank it out of her hands.

I hate it when adults get inappropriately mad for childish things. I always thought that they could handle anger better than youngins. But I guess not. How could you get mad for a mild reason at a child and give them the silent treatment for hours or even days? Control your anger, and act lke an adult, for god’’s sake. Prove that you didn”t waste your adolescent years. Act your age.

But yeah, looks who’’s talking. ^_^. heh

I need to do some Christmas shopping today or after Christmas. heh. I haven”t done any this year, I”ve been slacking off a lot because I know I don”t have the money to do any. But something small is better than nothing! So off I go prepare myself for some money spending.

Merry Christmas!!

I”ve been home four entirely too long days. I have about 2 more weeks of this. BUT on the bright side, my relatives are coming soon, so it won”t be as bad anymore. Being at home now, made me realize even more that I love being at school. I love my family and everything, but only one can take so much. I may be taking them for granted and everything but think about it, being at home is breaking my face out. Home is stressing me out more than school is. Isn”t it supposed to be the other way around?

I”m supposed to be skiing with my best friend right now but my mom wouldn”t let me go. She said I came home to be home, not to go out and play. Also, my brother got me a kitty for my birthday but my mom is making him take it back. But I don”t think he is, I think he’’s going to be moving out soon.

I”m counting down the days til Christmas but not for the reason you think it should be! My cousin Linda is coming in with her uncle and from then on, it”ll be fun to her here. My sister and Dave should be arriving soon after that along with other cousins. Big feastive family gathering coming up. I”m excited for that.

In stories, secondary characters are just people who help the story develop and move on. Primary characters are just (almost) as important as the main character. In my story, I have a lot of the primary characters. Without them, I wouldn”t be the person I am, I wouldn”t exist. I just wanted to thank all of you. I could list each and everyone of you but instead I won”t. You guys made my 20 years of life worthwhile.

There are certain things in life or certain occasions where things just don”t matter; where things just shouldn”t be mentioned. Like for instance, your daughters engagement party. You don”t want to scream out all of your grudges to the whole world, especially to your daughter’’s finances family. The person that should matter most during that time should be your daughter. Ahh, but nobody is perfect.

Bryant. My cute little second cousin and his toe. teehee. I miss him! So my cramps were as horrible as the first time I got cramped up. The first time I actually cried helplessly and this time..it happened throughout the day and also during my sleeping hours so I just wanted to get up and dramatically start crying and screaming hysterically but I decided not to because I didn”t want to wake anyone up. How kind! To leave you behind the gory details, I drank nasty bitter tea and it got all better..for the most part.

Things are looking up ! It’’s funny you start disclosing yourself to someone new. You gotta take a risk and hope for the best. Well this time it went well. It proved that you can open to someone new. When things are looking down, other things are looking up ! I love the way that works. heheeh. It’’s like meeting a brand new person! weeee

I”m running out of things to write about sisser. :P’

I have one more final this semester and it’’s tomorrow. My mind is thinking that IM DONE because it’’s refusing the study. -___- It’’s chinese too and to study this.. I ..uhh.. have to study the whole book basically. No motivation for this one whatsoever. I”m at the library once again. I have been in there for the past three or four nights til three in the morning. It’’s lovely, yes, hanging out at the library is fun. I don”t like the word “study” and I don”t like people who fart without warning anyone..especially if it smells so horrible.

t(-_-t)

I just completed the last math test I”ll hopefully ever have to take in college. It was the one final I was dreading during this final week. I”m glad it’’s over with but my poor eyes are getting the disadvantage of this. They”re so baggy and sensitive right now, it’’s..funny. I”m halfway through my finals and after Friday, I get to play play play! I”ll be going back to Greensboro on my birthday as soon as I drop Michael off at the airport. Turns out, I won”t be going snowboarding with my friends from State but instead I”ll be going with Shantel, thee best friend. Even better yah?

I”ve become the laziest person ever known to man and it’’s disgusting. I”ve also tried detaching myself from all of my responsibilities which is also disgusting. The motivation that I once had years back (probably) has yet to appear. It’’s time for me to get off my lazy ass and DO SOMETHING.

Finals are this week and I (surprisingly) started to study the other day. For some reason I”m not as stressed as everyone else is. Oh that makes sense though seeing how my laziness kicked in months ago.

I can”t fail math though. C”mon now, I”m asian. Whatever, hopefully I”ll panic soon.

I”ve tried applying this page for pay2blog kind of thing but I guess I didn”t qualify.

Here’’s to the money I could have gotten ! Today is Michael and I’’s 11 month. We”re old.

It has been said that December is the darkest and most depressing month ever. With endless clouds and lonely holidays, it makes sense. I hope it isn”t dark and morbid for me. December is my month and hopefully
it won”t let me down this year. I”m crossing my fingers so hard right now.

I hope things happen for a reason, I hope things remain the same. This is my first and I hope it doesn”t end. With my paranoidness, I”m never at ease anymore. I just need reassurance.