It’’s been a while. It”ll be a lot longer if I don”t write tonight. Enough with the “a lot has happened” shit. A lot did but that phrase is so.. last year. dX <–my new favorite face. Things have altered for the better and the worse. Actually..right now.. more things have been altered for the worse. The end has come to a lot of things in my life but as my recent fortune cookie said, “the end is just the door for something new and beautiful to come”. I”ve struggled with my internal states a lot for the past few weeks. It wasn”t pretty and it still isn”t. The battle is ending, and I am losing. If only I was stronger, if only I believed in things more, I would win this battle. But I don”t, so I”m losing. So you”re probably asking, why aren”t I fighting for it? I lost hope and the strength to do so.

I am the person I didn”t think I”d become. The person who, turns out, doesn”t value friendships as much as she said did in the past. My priorities are struggling to find its place in my time. Time runs out and it did for me. Don”t you wish you had more time? Sometimes. But you can”t defeat the inevitable. It was bound to happen; time just made it easier. Can”t I make something happen? Can”t I try and resolve things? I can, but I can”t seem to find the motivation. It has disappeared, it’’s gone. <b>It was good while it lasted.</b>

I”ve become the person I didn”t want to become.