To ease myself and others around me, I need to stop worrying so much about nonsense things. People can be forgiven, people can change. Trust can be restored with enough time and patience. How much time and patience one may ask? If only I knew because it’s killing the fuck out of me. I want to be able to forgvie and forget but it’s not as easy as it sounds.

I need to take the chill pill. I need to try to trust. I’ve realized that I haven’t really even began trying to trust again. I’m always trying to find things that would break the trust even more; to get in the way of trusting completely once again. I just need assurance. I need a lot of assurance. Maybe a hint or two every 5 minutes? Yeah, that’d be nice.